Peace, Love, Healthy

PL10P: 189.6/185.0/179.6

I’m not sure what else to say other than that. I’ve had 2 days on target with what I am supposed to be doing. I’m hoping to make it to 3. We all know the biggest problem will be the weekend.

I didn’t go out tonight. I always do this when I’m trying to lose weight. I probably would do it even when I wasn’t trying to lose weight. There’s just a stronger sense of not going when I want to stay healthy. I just can’t take the peer pressure. I know that no one would care if I stuck to being healthy while out, but I hate that feeling of being there and not getting to enjoy myself like everyone else. I always give in. Always.

Staying home I had a healthy dinner and even had some points left over. Too bad my stock of food is so sad. It’s a wonder how I haven’t lost weight when everything in my cabinet is very minimum and it’s all healthy items. I think my biggest mistakes are going out and buying dinner/snacks on the spot and sometimes eating too many of the healthy things I do have. Maybe if I focus on my bank account I won’t do that so much this week or next week. Gotta save that money.

I should probably go back to eating potatoes and fruit all the time. That’s what skinny me would have done. I mostly ate baked potatoes, fruit, oatmeal, and pbjs. I just can’t seem to force myself to eat the fruit I bring home. It always just sits in the fridge because my mind feels like I should waste the calories on fruit that I don’t really care to eat.

Ugh, old me where did you go?

PL10P: 189.6/186.2/179.6

I think I would have done better yesterday had I not eaten at Sonic for dinner. I didn’t want to eat there, but I was going somewhere to help a friend and that’s the place she picked to eat. I did stay in my points range for the day though. I had a chicken sandwich no mayo, no fries.

Hopefully today will be better. Although my friends want to go watch the Thunder game at a restaurant and then a bar. I might just skip out on tonight. Sometimes it’s just easier not going. Plus I’m not feeling super outgoing lately anyway.

We’ll see.

This is why I wanted to start this blog. I tend to just fall off the face of the Internet and with it I stop eating healthy. My sister was in town this weekend, and I knew it would be like this. I tried at first, but by Sunday I just stopped caring. I just don’t remember how to make this a lifestyle. I can do it as long as nothing pops up. If I avoid social situations then I’m fine, but the second I get around other people I just stop caring. It’s dumb, but I think it’s part of wanting to be accepted. You don’t want to look different when you order salad while everyone eats pizza. Or drink water while others have beer. Or sit and watch while everyone enjoys a piece of cake that you know will just send you over the edge. It’s really difficult, and I just haven’t found a way to cope with this yet. I do know that I am not giving up. I’m starting another week. I said I would wait until after July 4th, and I will. Perhaps I’ll find out that I’m stronger than I originally thought.

Per WW: 187.6/186.4/141

Per PL10P: 189.6/186.4/179.6 (3.2 lbs lost!)

Per PL10P: 189.6/184.0/179.6

Wow, as of today I have lost 5lbs since my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. That’s so awesome! I think going to the gym last night really helped boost things. I feel super motivated to continue this. I just need to make a plan. I need to make sure that I continue with this good, portioned eating. It helps to throw in some exercise too. My main concern is always food though. I just have to remind myself to eat right. I can do this. I will do this.

I hope this weight sticks for Monday!